Everything that was done could be said that it was done out
of love
At times I feel as if it comes from hate.
I still cannot understand everything.
Everything that is inside of me
All that I lived thought it still eats me up.
Sometimes I do not feel alive.
At times, these scenes or memories play out in my mind, as if they were from a
terrible movie.
Then I realize that these are moments from my life.
I cannot accept them all, I don’t want to.
I cannot understand what lead me to some situations or some of my actions.
How can I accept what I do not understand?
Often, I wonder how much longer I can go living the lie that I live now.
After everything, it is easier for me to share with a
stranger.
Than with someone that someone I share blood with.
Some days my own thoughts scare me.
I cannot accept something that I cannot understand.
I cannot understand something that I can not accept.
I lost my reason, my mind, and my way.
It was not until then that I never felt so sane.
Life has shown me how ugly it can get.
How can it break you down and drag you so far down?
Not sure if I was living or dying back then.
Or if I am dying or living now.
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